worn out pair of shoes

overworked, tired, super stressed and broke....thoughts of leaving the school and dreaming of a new life outside of Stella has occured to me once more today. im like a feet in a worn out and old pair of shoes desperately waiting for a breathe of fresh air and a replacement. i can't imagine myself in this community for a lifetime. i dreaded the day that i will die a teacher here- forever bitter and lonely...and always tired and in debts.

i want a new life. i want to chase my dreams and be in a world where i can be myself and good at it. i always pray for that moment that finally and confidently i would give my resignation to my directress and see the look at her face. of course she would be happy to get rid of a tiny mosquito like me hehehe. mosquito with a heart though.

a NEW HOPE came this afternoon when i bumped into a parent i once knew. mr. manalo asked me how i was and if im married. i said im okay and still single. he asked me straight if i wanted to apply for a teaching job in the US since a brother of him is recruiting recently for teachers. i was so surprised and instantly told him i was interested. he assured me to give details tomorrow. im over excited. it was a glint of hope and then i realized its not yet the end of the world for my dreams.

i told ms. erms, who share the same frustrations and dreams that i have, about the chance of getting a job abroad. hope this thing will work for me and for the both of us....finally.

i believe i can make this happen. God will be on our side. I believe He really will.

thong walk

red lights on, i was on the streets of claveria waiting for my signal when i spotted our ever famous mayor on his big bike with a hoard of bikers behind. it was good to see the mayor doing his rounds around the city and with his sex appeal, he looked so good on jeans and striped polo shirt tonight.

i had a long walk today with my new gold thong sandals from marikina :) it was my newest best buy this month and survived me hours of walking from school to NCCC and to claveria all the way to this cafe'. it really feels good on my feet and matched well with my new copper pedicure :) despite the heat of august in davao, it was a well enjoyed walk and bonding with my co teachers.

i missed Dr. Pendor's class this afternoon but was able to catch up on them at the last hour of class. got a good excuse though :) but i was so sorry for aileen who seem to have confidence problems and insecurities inside her. my prayer is for her tonight.

i need to rest my feet and be ready for another shoe post tomorrow :) nyt nyt!

last full show

waiting for 10pm is forever. its 8:20 and we still have less than 2hrs to kill time before the last full show. we have been waiting for this movie to come out of the big screen and I can't possibly miss it on its first week.

it's friday and i'm wearing my fave montego bay club espradille thongs for an exciting movie night with some closest friends. I can't wait to see John Lloyd and Sarah...im so uber excited! hahahaha

being with friends, being able to watch 'sine' once in awhile even if you can buy pirated dvds, and being able to unwind on a cool friday night after a dreaded week in school are few of the best things in life i enjoy being single...

see yah later after the movie!