With a few days more left before I finally delete (temporarily of course!) the vacation mode in my current status, an urgent need for a formal school shoes prompted me this morning to open the dusty shoe boxes in my room. These boxes, carefully kept on top of my closet are the homes of the most precious possessions and sacred things in my life- my shoes.
As soon as I set my eyes on these once lovely pairs that graced my tiny feet in many places and occasions I have been … I instantly felt a painful shot of guilt in my heart realizing that I have taken for granted things in my whirlwind life which are sacred and indispensably special.
What made the feeling even stronger was the realization that came from a new colleague of mine whose huge feat mirrored what I had dreamt to have and accomplish in the past- a lifelong dream I have totally taken for granted like my shoes in the box.
Writing was one of my earliest passions which came to life during essay writing contests in elementary to journalism in high school. Dreams were born out of this simple passion for creatively designing a Monalisa of written words. Some of those dreams were achieved, some were not even close to reality but some are still secretly hiding in the shoe boxes of heart’s desires. I have triumphed over qualifying to a national writing contest, mourned over not getting a creative writing course in college but still never stopped dreaming of having a published article in a national newspaper.
Writing is just like any other shoes in the box. You have to polish and clean it to restore and magnify the beauty it adds to your walking…you have to hold it dear to your heart to always continue to feed you with simple pleasures and joy….and you have to use and wear it to boost the glory it brings to your life.
Shoes, books and writing are my life’s passions….my treasures in the box. Its time to bring them out to shine!
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
Sunday, August 9, 2009
on shoes...flowers..and cory
the death of former president corazon aquino last aug. 1 has renewed the sense of patriotism in every filipino and stories about her life of service and simplicity has touched me and moved me into tears. the past days, everytime i turn on the tv or read the daily news on the paper about her passing, tears would stream into my eyes and can't help myself from getting emotional. (i am such a cry baby). the biggest regret that i have right now is not being able to experience the people power revolution in 1986...not being able to feel the love, the intensity aND passion for democracy...not being able to take part in cory's fight for our freedom. crying in those times would surely be worth it.
on a lighter note...it was revealed in the stories by people whom cory have touched about her penchant for flowers. most of her paintings given as gifts to her friends are flowers. i, too love to draw flowers..not just because they are the easiest thing to draw in this world but because of their beauty and the calmness and joy they bring. i love flowers...i love them on my notebook or on my dress... i love flowers in my classroom...and i love to be in a secret garden full of flowers!
last week, my brother brought the pair of shoes from carmille which she offered to sell to me super cheap. when he opened the paper bag and handed them to me...i gasped and hugged them in excitement. it was a thing of beauty even though the shoes are in different sizes (dont know how her mother got them hahaha) one is size 6 and the other 6 and 1/2....well it doesn't matter...people would not care and would never notice the size difference anyway :) wink wink! what made this shoes extra special is the flowery designs all over...very dainty and super nice nice nice! these American eagle flats with slingbacks are really perfect on a weekend day out.
a leader just like a pair of shoes is not hard to find. they are almost everywhere. most politicians come and go- some leave with good marks but most have left with a legacy of corruption and immorality. but a leader with passion, deep faith and sincerity just like cory aquino is like a rare pair of shoes that comes to you by destiny. She was God's gift to the Philippines for she gave us back our democracy and led our ailing nation with moral leadership. the filipinos are indeed destined to have tita cory as a president, in a very same way that i was fated to have this simple yet odd flowery shoes which i will forever cherish in my shoe memories. how i love serendipity!
on a lighter note...it was revealed in the stories by people whom cory have touched about her penchant for flowers. most of her paintings given as gifts to her friends are flowers. i, too love to draw flowers..not just because they are the easiest thing to draw in this world but because of their beauty and the calmness and joy they bring. i love flowers...i love them on my notebook or on my dress... i love flowers in my classroom...and i love to be in a secret garden full of flowers!
last week, my brother brought the pair of shoes from carmille which she offered to sell to me super cheap. when he opened the paper bag and handed them to me...i gasped and hugged them in excitement. it was a thing of beauty even though the shoes are in different sizes (dont know how her mother got them hahaha) one is size 6 and the other 6 and 1/2....well it doesn't matter...people would not care and would never notice the size difference anyway :) wink wink! what made this shoes extra special is the flowery designs all over...very dainty and super nice nice nice! these American eagle flats with slingbacks are really perfect on a weekend day out.
a leader just like a pair of shoes is not hard to find. they are almost everywhere. most politicians come and go- some leave with good marks but most have left with a legacy of corruption and immorality. but a leader with passion, deep faith and sincerity just like cory aquino is like a rare pair of shoes that comes to you by destiny. She was God's gift to the Philippines for she gave us back our democracy and led our ailing nation with moral leadership. the filipinos are indeed destined to have tita cory as a president, in a very same way that i was fated to have this simple yet odd flowery shoes which i will forever cherish in my shoe memories. how i love serendipity!
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
eye candy
i was at sm northwing cebu last May and was in ecstacy. i was in total high when i entered the charles and keith store....the shoes were super jaw dropping. wished i had the money to buy a pair just to feed my shoe- hungry craving that moment.
my money was just enough to take me home to davao....so clad in my ever durable havaianas green flipflops with my canon digital cam in hand.....might as well tour the whole northwing to discover eye candies enough to bring me back to davao in high spirits!
i was looking through the pics which were mostly stolen awhile ago and felt a different kind of need to blog another shoe story of mine. window shopping was the best thing a moneyless shoeholic like me can do when stricken by a fever called high heeled flu. thats a new one hahahahaha. its a damn flu i would love to get over and over again...
im happy and so much alive right now. thanks to shoe therapy :)
my money was just enough to take me home to davao....so clad in my ever durable havaianas green flipflops with my canon digital cam in hand.....might as well tour the whole northwing to discover eye candies enough to bring me back to davao in high spirits!
i was looking through the pics which were mostly stolen awhile ago and felt a different kind of need to blog another shoe story of mine. window shopping was the best thing a moneyless shoeholic like me can do when stricken by a fever called high heeled flu. thats a new one hahahahaha. its a damn flu i would love to get over and over again...
im happy and so much alive right now. thanks to shoe therapy :)
Thursday, January 15, 2009
birthday shower
when it rains...it pours
it was wet and gloomy today on my 3oth birthday (arrghh!) i woke up with the sound of a heavy downpour on my window and i thought...what an odd way of welcoming this day. i hoped the shower would end so soon but it didn't... forcing me to take a taxi and paid 70 pesos for it (arrgghh x2).
but the rain did not dampen my excited birthday spirit at all. the greetings were all over and the surprise blessings poured. it was declared a "no class" by the mayor due to the rain and bad weather...so i freaked out in joy :)
with my new cheap mary jane brown shoes...i huddled the rain with excitement along with my two girl friends sally and ermie. we had a heavy pizza trip with ate arlene at greenwich with ube macapuno roll from goldilocks yum yum yum! then off to Shrine hills and prayed to Sto Nino...and finally to jack's ridge for a breathe of cool air, little girl chatting and a free access to their overlooking-the-city comfort room :)
it was a birthday like no other...simple may it be, this day was a way of making me feel that i am still blessed with the best things in life that are priceless- good friends, family and a special someone out there :)
happy birthday to me :)
it was wet and gloomy today on my 3oth birthday (arrghh!) i woke up with the sound of a heavy downpour on my window and i thought...what an odd way of welcoming this day. i hoped the shower would end so soon but it didn't... forcing me to take a taxi and paid 70 pesos for it (arrgghh x2).
but the rain did not dampen my excited birthday spirit at all. the greetings were all over and the surprise blessings poured. it was declared a "no class" by the mayor due to the rain and bad weather...so i freaked out in joy :)
with my new cheap mary jane brown shoes...i huddled the rain with excitement along with my two girl friends sally and ermie. we had a heavy pizza trip with ate arlene at greenwich with ube macapuno roll from goldilocks yum yum yum! then off to Shrine hills and prayed to Sto Nino...and finally to jack's ridge for a breathe of cool air, little girl chatting and a free access to their overlooking-the-city comfort room :)
it was a birthday like no other...simple may it be, this day was a way of making me feel that i am still blessed with the best things in life that are priceless- good friends, family and a special someone out there :)
happy birthday to me :)
Saturday, November 1, 2008
Doc in Havaianas
its 1 day to go and the semestral break will soon be over. this short lived life of pleasure and idleness will soon come to an end. still have more books to read...pirated dvd's to watch...sleeping time to enjoy...and internet hours to spend..but never had the luxury of time to do everything.
i came from a girl bonding session with my girl friends at seagilid for a morning of a refreshing time at the beach. clad in my old green havaianas flip flops, we had long walks and fun talks by the beach and ate a variety of kakanin that we brought.
relaxed and happy, i decided to have a few hours on the net to chat. its my first after a few months.i never get to have the time to chat anyway because of my ever busy sked in school and knowing that it will surely be just useless exchange ctc and asl in ym and mirc.
but today proved to be the opposite because i met Doc Ryan from CDO who, in the middle of attending to patients with hypertension and doing some minor operation, is also chatting. he must have an extraordinary talent in multi tasking hehehehe.
armed with red and blue havaianas, imagine this young doctor strutting the hospital halls with fashion. thats at thousand pesos on his feet while doing some kind of "grey's anatomy" in a cagayan hospital. anyway, he must be a nice person to be able work in a rural hospital while most of the doctors in the philippines are in high end hospitals or scattered all over the world for greener pastures. well the grass is always green because it is simply external. hope docryan would realize how significant he can be in this country where the grass is not so green :)
my eyes are tired and I'll say bye to my new friend.I guess I need to have a few hours in bed after this before going back to reality---that I still have testpapers to check and a lesson plan to make huhuhuhu
babush!
i came from a girl bonding session with my girl friends at seagilid for a morning of a refreshing time at the beach. clad in my old green havaianas flip flops, we had long walks and fun talks by the beach and ate a variety of kakanin that we brought.
relaxed and happy, i decided to have a few hours on the net to chat. its my first after a few months.i never get to have the time to chat anyway because of my ever busy sked in school and knowing that it will surely be just useless exchange ctc and asl in ym and mirc.
but today proved to be the opposite because i met Doc Ryan from CDO who, in the middle of attending to patients with hypertension and doing some minor operation, is also chatting. he must have an extraordinary talent in multi tasking hehehehe.
armed with red and blue havaianas, imagine this young doctor strutting the hospital halls with fashion. thats at thousand pesos on his feet while doing some kind of "grey's anatomy" in a cagayan hospital. anyway, he must be a nice person to be able work in a rural hospital while most of the doctors in the philippines are in high end hospitals or scattered all over the world for greener pastures. well the grass is always green because it is simply external. hope docryan would realize how significant he can be in this country where the grass is not so green :)
my eyes are tired and I'll say bye to my new friend.I guess I need to have a few hours in bed after this before going back to reality---that I still have testpapers to check and a lesson plan to make huhuhuhu
babush!
Sunday, September 21, 2008
driving 101 with my converse
it was a long and tiring morning. i just came from my 2 hour driving lessons with ate ermie and of course with our ever strict kuya who never missed giving us a dose of 'pangasaba'..errr...friendly reminders diay. today was sort of a fulfillment in this outrageous and craze filled driving adventure since i was able to drive from shrine hills...to maa diversion road all the way to bankerohan market...whew unbelievable! surreal but i did it with 98% tension, fear and sweat hehehe
i had huge problems with clutch breaks and gear shifts...but thanks to my white, old and ever so dirty pair of converse shoes, I was able to managed it with a lot of palpak and less of ease. i guess i still have a lot to practice to drive like a pro.
my third session will be next sunday again and my converse shoes will still be with me on the road. dirty it may be, this converse is definitely my driving buddy :)
i had huge problems with clutch breaks and gear shifts...but thanks to my white, old and ever so dirty pair of converse shoes, I was able to managed it with a lot of palpak and less of ease. i guess i still have a lot to practice to drive like a pro.
my third session will be next sunday again and my converse shoes will still be with me on the road. dirty it may be, this converse is definitely my driving buddy :)
Thursday, August 7, 2008
worn out pair of shoes
overworked, tired, super stressed and broke....thoughts of leaving the school and dreaming of a new life outside of Stella has occured to me once more today. im like a feet in a worn out and old pair of shoes desperately waiting for a breathe of fresh air and a replacement. i can't imagine myself in this community for a lifetime. i dreaded the day that i will die a teacher here- forever bitter and lonely...and always tired and in debts.
i want a new life. i want to chase my dreams and be in a world where i can be myself and good at it. i always pray for that moment that finally and confidently i would give my resignation to my directress and see the look at her face. of course she would be happy to get rid of a tiny mosquito like me hehehe. mosquito with a heart though.
a NEW HOPE came this afternoon when i bumped into a parent i once knew. mr. manalo asked me how i was and if im married. i said im okay and still single. he asked me straight if i wanted to apply for a teaching job in the US since a brother of him is recruiting recently for teachers. i was so surprised and instantly told him i was interested. he assured me to give details tomorrow. im over excited. it was a glint of hope and then i realized its not yet the end of the world for my dreams.
i told ms. erms, who share the same frustrations and dreams that i have, about the chance of getting a job abroad. hope this thing will work for me and for the both of us....finally.
i believe i can make this happen. God will be on our side. I believe He really will.
i want a new life. i want to chase my dreams and be in a world where i can be myself and good at it. i always pray for that moment that finally and confidently i would give my resignation to my directress and see the look at her face. of course she would be happy to get rid of a tiny mosquito like me hehehe. mosquito with a heart though.
a NEW HOPE came this afternoon when i bumped into a parent i once knew. mr. manalo asked me how i was and if im married. i said im okay and still single. he asked me straight if i wanted to apply for a teaching job in the US since a brother of him is recruiting recently for teachers. i was so surprised and instantly told him i was interested. he assured me to give details tomorrow. im over excited. it was a glint of hope and then i realized its not yet the end of the world for my dreams.
i told ms. erms, who share the same frustrations and dreams that i have, about the chance of getting a job abroad. hope this thing will work for me and for the both of us....finally.
i believe i can make this happen. God will be on our side. I believe He really will.
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